S L E E P
All that I seem to be blogging about these days (months) are life changing events. I think this one is pretty important as well... Isaac finally slept for 8 hours last night. That could be fluke, but I got 5 hours of unbroken sleep. It was amazing! I know that many people have been praying for me to get needed rest. God allowed that last night. Praise the Lord! Isaac has been up every 3 hours for almost 10 weeks. I expected him to be just like Jonas and Ella. They slept through at 7 weeks. (Kate was a whole different story!) I've been in such a fog of sleep deprivation since my emotions have been stretched to the max with Jason in the hospital. I've felt like I'm traveling in a blizzard and holding onto a rope that is tied to my destination and I cannot see anything around me but I know to go hand over hand step over step through the storm, hanging onto the rope. God has given grace moment by moment through the trial. He is good and loving. These things I know and am now experiencing in new depths. I have thought many times that surely God would "give me a break" and let me sleep through the night since I have to do ALL this other stuff during the day! How silly. God knows exactly what I need and does what He wills with me. Time is a strange thing. When I look at my chubby cheeked baby boy who no longer fits in a little ball in one arm, 10 weeks seems to have flown by, but when I look back over the events of our hospital experience 10 weeks seems like 6 months! Perspective changes with rest and tonight I am hoping for more sleep. If God wills. If not, I'll enjoy the quiet hours of the night with my newborn. He is a gift from God and I'll cherish each minute with him.