...emergency surgery was preformed on Jason to start the process of removing infection that was taking over his body and was in the blood stream. This type of infection kills over 80% of the people who get it when sepsis is already present at the time of hospitalization. The doctor told me that night that if Jason were 20 years older he would be dead. His age was the only thing he had going for him at the moment. The doctor said that there was really no explanation for the infection and that it was just "bad luck". Through God's grace I replied that although we didn't know why this was happening we did know who was allowing it to happen and that we had complete confidence in Him.
two years ago today
... I dared to imagine life without my husband. I knew it was wrong. I knew to think truth, but the doubts and fears were very real for 2 weeks as his life was touch and go. I still have moments of fear and doubt about the uncertain future, especially since we know that God is moving us to the Philippines. It is a very real fear of mine that God calls some to a life of trials to produce patience and enduring faith as a testimony of God's goodness for His glory. I realize that since we experienced one trial doesn't mean we are exempt from any more. While it's certainly a reality to me that life can change in an instant I know that God is unchanging and His grace will always be present.
I haven't shared this photo with anyone yet. For a long time I couldn't look at it. I took this the first day in the hospital because Jason and I were relieved that he was there and had surgery and had some pain relief. We didn't know here that this infection was still present and spreading and the next few weeks would be a fight for Jason's life and would be the most trying time of our lives.
two years ago today
...we were allowed by our loving Father to experience a trial that in every way at every time caused us to glory in God. He was real and working and powerful. It was amazing. We would never choose to experience a trial, but even now are thankful for it.
Anytime God handpicks you to walk through a trial to help display His glory is a high calling. I'm reminded when I reminisce about the past two years that God is bigger than me and my life and my trial, but may choose to use me for His glory in a way I'd never imagine or choose. I'm comforted with the hope of eternity today as I parent my children, as I relate to my neighbor, and as I adjust to divine interruptions in my schedule. The hope of eternity strengthens my faith not only in mundane tasks but also in great trial. Every day is a gift from our Father and what He wills is our calling.
If you're interested you can read last year's post here.
Anytime God handpicks you to walk through a trial to help display His glory is a high calling. I'm reminded when I reminisce about the past two years that God is bigger than me and my life and my trial, but may choose to use me for His glory in a way I'd never imagine or choose. I'm comforted with the hope of eternity today as I parent my children, as I relate to my neighbor, and as I adjust to divine interruptions in my schedule. The hope of eternity strengthens my faith not only in mundane tasks but also in great trial. Every day is a gift from our Father and what He wills is our calling.
If you're interested you can read last year's post here.
